Last night, in a somewhat drunken stroll back to the subway at 3am, the Lawyer said something to me that kinda threw me. See, he and I have been hanging out “as friends” for the past two weeks. As far as he knows, Older Navy and I are broken up. I didn’t tell him that he and I have sort of worked things out (more to come about that) and that we decided not to see other people. Regardless, the lawyer has not made a pass at me or done so much as attempted to hold my hand.

But…

As we’re walking to the subway he says, “now this may just be the alcohol talking, but where are we? And I don’t mean geographically speaking?” I told him I didn’t know. This would be the perfect opportunity for me to tell him the truth. But to be honest, I’m not sure where I really am with Older Navy and if I decide tonight or tomorrow or whatever to break up with him (or if he breaks up with me) then it would be nice to have the sweet, attentive lawyer on the bench. I know that’s awful, but come on, you were thinking it too!

So anyway he says to me, “cause, I like you a whole lot and umm, well, I kinda want to see you all the time…and I have this big fat crush on you…” Man I’ve been dying to have someone say that to me. I’m not sure he’s the one I want to hear it from though. Don’t get me wrong, I do like him. I’m just not crazy crazy about him. Maybe that’s a good thing. Maybe it would be good to get into something that’s just there instead of intense in your face love at first whatever.

I’m just kinda confused here. I mean, here I am still pining over Older Navy who for all intensive purposes has not treated me with the bevy of respect that I think I deserve. He is truly demonstrative in his words, he tells me how much he likes me and how great he thinks I am, but his actions…well, that’s a problem. And here’s the lawyer who is fairly available (although not overly available) and says nice things about me. Kinda two for two.

So, how long can I keep this up? Can I fake out the lawyer long enough to figure out what the hell is going on with Older Navy? And let’s say I do work things out with Older Navy, how then, do I drop the lawyer without majorly crushing him and letting him know I was leading him on? I know this is kinda a great problem to have, but it’s not really one that I care to deal with.