Oh it is so sad to break someone’s heart. Last week Laura and I had a show and the always dependable lawyer showed up to show his support. There he was, cute as ever, front row center, engaged and excited to be there. He warmly greeted me with a hug once I got off the stage. He’s really…swell.

After the show we all hung out. Me, Laura, another girl friend, the Lawyer and adorable Co-Worker. I could have sworn that both adorable co-worker and the Lawyer were flirting with Laura, but I always think that every guy around me is flirting with Laura. Anyway when we all finally decide to leave the two boys practically fight over who gets to help Laura carry her keyboard case out the door. There I am, with my sunburned shoulders, throwing on my guitar bag without so much as a glace…sigh.

So we go outside and we’re all standing around. It’s getting late and I decide it’s time to head out. The lawyer decides it is also time to leave and conveniently, he’s taking the same train as I am. Anyway, we get on the train and he hits me with the news: he’s probably moving back to Florida at the end of the summer. He hasn’t been able to find a job and the city is eating him alive. I pout a little because, I am going to miss him. He looks at me and says “but that lip back or I’m gonna get it.” I ignore that because , well, it’s stupid.

He asks if he can use my bathroom, which I think is strange cause I live so far from the subway but I try to be nice. He walks me home and upstairs. He does, in fact use my bathroom and then I walk him to the door. He looks at me and says “well looks like I’m not going to see you for a while so I wanted to give you this before you leave” and he plants one on me. I’m taken a bit aback. When he’s done kissing me he says “now remember how fun that is” and walks out the door..

The next day he IMs me. He tells me that he can’t stop thinking about me (ugh, I thought we were past this) and he wants to see me before I leave for NC (he thinks I’m just going down there to record my record). He asks me out to dinner. I tell him that dinner could work but it would have to be just as friends.

Think NotIntoYou THINK! Why do you have to be friends???? So I tell him: “I don’t want any romantic entanglements before I go down to make my record, and I certainly don’t want any with someone who’s about to skip town.” He says he’s a bit brokenhearted but he understands. Whew! Then he says he’ll take a rain check on dinner. Oh man, break my heart. I do feel for the guy but even if I were “available” I don’t know how long I could date him. I mean he’s sweet, charming, polite and really fucking cute but he’s cocky as hell. I just couldn’t deal with it.

Anyway he and I have talked a bit since then, and I do think we might be able to pull this friend thing off. I just have to figure out how to tell him that I’ve been lying about being broken up with Older Navy this whole time. I guess this is what I get huh?